WEBVTT 00:00:00.534 --> 00:00:03.804 ( music playing ) 00:01:45.440 --> 00:01:48.542 Man: All of my past washes over me. 00:01:51.312 --> 00:01:58.052 Woman: All of my past is in this room. 00:01:59.954 --> 00:02:02.990 Man: I found you. 00:02:04.092 --> 00:02:10.798 All of the women I have been with are eclipsed by you. 00:02:11.932 --> 00:02:17.037 I am stripped. 00:02:18.973 --> 00:02:22.076 Woman: I think of you as my patient. 00:02:22.943 --> 00:02:26.046 I treat you. 00:02:27.781 --> 00:02:32.820 I'm stripped also. 00:02:34.288 --> 00:02:37.390 Man: I searched and searched for you. 00:02:39.660 --> 00:02:44.531 I want to know you. 00:02:45.299 --> 00:02:48.401 Woman: I, like my work, 00:02:48.902 --> 00:02:51.939 there are rules. 00:02:52.340 --> 00:02:54.775 They protect us. 00:02:56.277 --> 00:02:59.379 Man: The movement of your hands. 00:03:00.682 --> 00:03:07.521 The rhythm of your hands has become my resting place. 00:03:08.289 --> 00:03:11.324 Momentary peace... 00:03:11.859 --> 00:03:17.698 so sweetly broken apart. 00:03:26.474 --> 00:03:31.311 Woman: Take off the mask. 00:03:37.451 --> 00:03:40.487 You still have about an hour. 00:03:41.155 --> 00:03:44.258 Do you wanna do the piercing? 00:03:46.026 --> 00:03:50.931 Yeah. 00:04:03.010 --> 00:04:08.115 ( sighs ) 00:04:18.092 --> 00:04:23.363 ( exhales sharply ) 00:04:28.202 --> 00:04:31.305 - Aah. - Shh. 00:04:32.706 --> 00:04:37.911 ( sighing ) 00:04:38.345 --> 00:04:41.381 It's almost there. 00:04:42.049 --> 00:04:45.018 - Do you wanna look? - Sure. 00:04:46.254 --> 00:04:49.356 - ( laughs ) - It's a little deeper than last time. 00:04:49.723 --> 00:04:52.759 Yeah. 00:04:53.427 --> 00:04:54.761 Do you wanna try another one? 00:04:55.028 --> 00:04:57.164 Sure. 00:04:57.632 --> 00:05:02.702 I love doing this. 00:05:14.482 --> 00:05:17.517 ( inhales sharply ) 00:05:17.851 --> 00:05:19.753 ( gasps ) 00:05:20.421 --> 00:05:23.390 - It's through. - ( moans ) 00:05:24.624 --> 00:05:27.660 ( laughs ) 00:05:28.395 --> 00:05:30.463 - Hold still now. - ( moans ) 00:05:31.098 --> 00:05:33.100 - Hold still. - Uh-huh. 00:05:35.269 --> 00:05:40.841 ( inhales sharply ) 00:05:42.976 --> 00:05:48.481 ( panting ) 00:05:48.982 --> 00:05:53.954 This is the best part. 00:05:54.955 --> 00:06:00.460 Aah! ( laughing ) 00:06:28.055 --> 00:06:31.091 I wrote a little note. 00:06:31.425 --> 00:06:35.996 As usual. 00:06:36.731 --> 00:06:39.766 Remember last week 00:06:40.668 --> 00:06:41.701 when the phone lines were all screwed up? 00:06:42.770 --> 00:06:43.603 God, yeah. I lost a whole day's work practically. 00:06:44.204 --> 00:06:46.940 I was out a lot of money. 00:06:47.474 --> 00:06:48.541 I called you that day. 00:06:49.042 --> 00:06:51.044 I know, you told me. 00:06:51.979 --> 00:06:54.181 I got scared the place had closed down. I-- 00:06:55.149 --> 00:06:57.017 I worried I would never get in touch with you. 00:06:57.919 --> 00:07:03.857 I'm going to quit at the end of the month. 00:07:08.328 --> 00:07:11.365 I was thinking we could try... 00:07:12.133 --> 00:07:14.067 seeing each other on the outside. 00:07:14.334 --> 00:07:18.504 You-- 00:07:19.907 --> 00:07:22.942 you know I've wanted this for a long time. 00:07:23.310 --> 00:07:26.012 Yes, I know. 00:07:26.513 --> 00:07:29.549 How should we do this? 00:07:30.718 --> 00:07:33.553 Why don't you give me your number and I'll call you? 00:07:34.087 --> 00:07:40.026 I'll give you my card. 00:07:56.943 --> 00:08:01.748 Mm. 00:08:05.920 --> 00:08:11.024 ( rap music playing in distance ) 00:08:20.901 --> 00:08:23.937 Okay, look. The guy told me 1:00, all right? 00:08:25.106 --> 00:08:27.207 - What, do you think I made this up? - No, no, no, no. 00:08:28.610 --> 00:08:28.674 I didn't say that. I only said that Jeff does not come in on Fridays, 00:08:29.510 --> 00:08:31.677 so there must be some misunderstanding. 00:08:33.314 --> 00:08:35.615 - A misunderstanding? - Yes, a misunderstanding. I'm sorry. ( sighs ) 00:08:36.650 --> 00:08:37.050 Staff meeting was moved up to three today, right? 00:08:37.317 --> 00:08:39.052 Uh, yes. 00:08:39.820 --> 00:08:42.855 Mail keeps piling up. 00:08:43.190 --> 00:08:44.324 ( scoffs ) 00:08:45.660 --> 00:08:45.858 Just getting in and you already look like you need a Valium, Peter. 00:08:46.527 --> 00:08:49.195 I'll drop by your office later. 00:08:49.697 --> 00:08:51.298 So what's going on? 00:08:52.634 --> 00:08:53.366 Sorry to bug you about this, but what do you think I should say 00:08:54.268 --> 00:08:56.236 to the Oxford people on the phone today? 00:08:56.570 --> 00:08:57.971 Uh, about? 00:08:59.374 --> 00:08:59.739 Remember the kid who hid himself in the building a couple of weeks ago? 00:09:00.073 --> 00:09:02.242 Oh, right. 00:09:02.776 --> 00:09:03.810 Well, all I can say is 00:09:04.712 --> 00:09:05.678 you must tell them what you already know. 00:09:07.014 --> 00:09:07.814 They're gonna cut him off unless you exaggerate what's going on. 00:09:08.615 --> 00:09:10.383 What, like claiming he's suicidal? 00:09:11.853 --> 00:09:12.952 Well, that depends on how strongly you feel he should stay in therapy. 00:09:15.689 --> 00:09:18.724 - Anything else? - No. 00:09:19.493 --> 00:09:21.595 - Thanks. - ( dial tone, beeping ) 00:09:23.129 --> 00:09:26.166 ( phone ringing ) 00:09:27.235 --> 00:09:32.772 Woman on recording: Thanks for calling. No messages. 00:09:51.991 --> 00:09:57.097 ( crying ) 00:10:15.081 --> 00:10:20.186 ( sighs ) 00:10:24.958 --> 00:10:29.496 Ooh. 00:10:33.567 --> 00:10:36.670 No, no, no, no. Relax, relax, just leave them. 00:10:38.739 --> 00:10:41.774 ( sighs ) 00:10:42.409 --> 00:10:45.345 Is there something going on? 00:10:46.314 --> 00:10:47.247 You've been kind of hard to talk to these days. 00:10:48.282 --> 00:10:51.317 I know, I've been pretty distracted. 00:10:51.785 --> 00:10:53.353 Is it the clinic? 00:10:53.620 --> 00:10:55.622 In part. 00:10:57.092 --> 00:10:57.491 Do you think this has anything to do with May's going away to college? 00:10:58.993 --> 00:11:02.028 Doesn't feel that way. 00:11:03.063 --> 00:11:04.830 Except her leaving makes me know that I'm older. 00:11:05.866 --> 00:11:08.835 ( sighs ) I've been pretty preoccupied myself. 00:11:09.636 --> 00:11:12.672 Ugh, if I don't finish this book 00:11:13.641 --> 00:11:15.341 up in Nova Scotia this summer, I don't know. 00:11:15.843 --> 00:11:18.111 It's not just work. 00:11:18.645 --> 00:11:22.415 Well, what is it, then? 00:11:24.151 --> 00:11:27.186 There's a dominant that I've been seeing. 00:11:27.988 --> 00:11:29.355 I mean-- I mean, I've been seeing... 00:11:30.024 --> 00:11:31.725 one dominant for a while now. 00:11:34.028 --> 00:11:40.233 She told me the other day she's gonna stop working. 00:11:42.002 --> 00:11:45.104 I've become very... 00:11:45.505 --> 00:11:48.608 attached to her. 00:11:49.310 --> 00:11:52.345 ( sighs ) Is it-- ( scoffs ) 00:11:53.047 --> 00:11:55.081 Is it personal or professional, 00:11:55.782 --> 00:11:57.183 this attachment you have to her? 00:11:57.617 --> 00:11:59.552 - Both. - Both? 00:12:00.454 --> 00:12:03.256 We're gonna try to get together for coffee 00:12:03.891 --> 00:12:05.659 after she's stopped working. 00:12:06.526 --> 00:12:09.562 ( scoffs ) 00:12:10.999 --> 00:12:13.633 Are you telling me this to reassure yourself that that's all it'll be? 00:12:14.235 --> 00:12:20.373 No, that is all it will be. 00:12:21.442 --> 00:12:23.610 I just didn't want you to think it was something else. 00:12:24.078 --> 00:12:26.713 I didn't mean to-- 00:12:27.314 --> 00:12:28.281 I just wanted to tell you. 00:12:29.315 --> 00:12:34.787 ( sighs ) 00:12:48.568 --> 00:12:53.707 ( phone ringing ) 00:12:56.743 --> 00:12:59.779 Hello? 00:13:00.314 --> 00:13:05.118 I told you I'd call you. 00:13:40.253 --> 00:13:43.289 Hi. 00:13:44.158 --> 00:13:47.193 - Sorry, am I late? - No, not at all. 00:13:51.999 --> 00:13:55.101 So how you doing? 00:13:56.504 --> 00:13:59.539 It's strange seeing you on the outside. 00:13:59.873 --> 00:14:02.442 Well, how? 00:14:03.310 --> 00:14:05.612 You're uncomfortable, too. I can tell. 00:14:06.580 --> 00:14:07.814 I, uh, well, I-- I guess I am a little nervous. 00:14:08.516 --> 00:14:12.719 - ( chuckles ) - That's good. 00:14:13.788 --> 00:14:15.955 Oh, um, just a glass of white wine for me, please. 00:14:16.556 --> 00:14:18.458 Yeah, I'll have the same. 00:14:19.560 --> 00:14:22.395 You said on the phone your wife's gone for the summer? 00:14:24.965 --> 00:14:31.771 Yeah, she's up in Nova Scotia writing. 00:14:33.774 --> 00:14:36.810 It must be hard on you with your wife gone for so long? 00:14:37.211 --> 00:14:40.079 I'm used to it. 00:14:40.714 --> 00:14:42.682 She goes there every summer. 00:14:43.517 --> 00:14:46.519 Does that mean you've done this before? 00:14:46.853 --> 00:14:49.856 Done what? 00:14:50.491 --> 00:14:51.324 What we are doing right now. 00:14:51.591 --> 00:14:53.860 No... 00:14:54.528 --> 00:14:57.564 not with anyone I've ever seen. 00:14:59.567 --> 00:15:02.602 - This is stupid. - What? What? 00:15:03.437 --> 00:15:04.737 Us talking like this. The whole thing. 00:15:05.406 --> 00:15:09.509 - I should go. - Suzanne... 00:15:10.810 --> 00:15:15.481 I should go. 00:15:15.516 --> 00:15:18.585 I'll never feel comfortable about how we met. 00:15:19.653 --> 00:15:25.024 We would never have met in any other way. 00:15:27.494 --> 00:15:33.266 That doesn't change the way I feel. 00:15:35.168 --> 00:15:38.271 What do you want from me? 00:15:39.672 --> 00:15:42.709 Nothing. 00:15:43.277 --> 00:15:44.243 Well, that's not true. 00:15:44.778 --> 00:15:46.646 I do wanna talk to you. 00:15:47.180 --> 00:15:51.718 You wanna know about me. 00:15:52.351 --> 00:15:56.823 Yes. 00:15:57.625 --> 00:16:00.292 Remember that guy I told you about? 00:16:01.061 --> 00:16:02.194 The one who liked extreme bondage? 00:16:02.729 --> 00:16:04.230 Who? Hog-tie Harry? 00:16:05.432 --> 00:16:08.301 Something happened with him about three weeks before I quit. 00:16:10.770 --> 00:16:13.806 He was one of my first regulars. 00:16:14.408 --> 00:16:15.675 I never really liked him, 00:16:16.543 --> 00:16:18.310 but I've always allowed him to see me. 00:16:19.313 --> 00:16:20.847 Out of some kind of perverse loyalty, I guess. 00:16:22.283 --> 00:16:24.918 But the last time I saw him, it wasn't just that I didn't like him... 00:16:25.319 --> 00:16:28.320 he repulsed me. 00:16:29.389 --> 00:16:29.856 - What did he ask you to do? - No, no, it's not that. 00:16:31.224 --> 00:16:34.327 It's more that I felt that he deserved to be humiliated 00:16:35.628 --> 00:16:38.664 like he should be kicked around. 00:16:39.633 --> 00:16:41.034 Didn't he feel he deserved to be humiliated? 00:16:42.902 --> 00:16:46.006 I liked hurting him, Peter. 00:16:47.775 --> 00:16:50.810 Are you saying you never felt this way before? 00:16:51.912 --> 00:16:54.848 I discovered I couldn't distance myself from the work. 00:16:56.149 --> 00:16:59.184 Was I involved in this? 00:16:59.853 --> 00:17:05.458 I knew we had gotten too close. 00:17:15.068 --> 00:17:20.040 It's late. 00:17:21.541 --> 00:17:26.145 I'm happy here. 00:17:28.681 --> 00:17:33.753 I like being with you. 00:17:34.354 --> 00:17:40.226 I like being with you, too. 00:18:20.833 --> 00:18:25.939 ( groaning ) 00:18:31.978 --> 00:18:35.014 Suzanne, stop. 00:18:35.482 --> 00:18:38.151 What's the matter? 00:18:39.219 --> 00:18:42.254 Are you enjoying this? 00:18:42.655 --> 00:18:44.423 Of course I am. 00:18:44.824 --> 00:18:49.829 I wasn't sure. 00:19:02.775 --> 00:19:07.880 ( cell phone ringing ) 00:19:10.150 --> 00:19:13.252 ( line ringing ) 00:19:14.588 --> 00:19:17.623 Suzanne on answering machine: I'm not available right now. 00:19:18.024 --> 00:19:19.225 ( phone beeps ) 00:19:20.126 --> 00:19:23.229 ( doorbell rings ) 00:19:24.498 --> 00:19:27.533 Woman on intercom: Who is it? 00:19:27.800 --> 00:19:29.168 Robert. 00:19:29.569 --> 00:19:33.106 ( door buzzing ) 00:20:19.719 --> 00:20:22.822 Um... did you decide? 00:20:24.490 --> 00:20:28.995 Diana. 00:20:31.431 --> 00:20:34.533 - I can take your tribute now. - Yeah, sure. 00:20:35.134 --> 00:20:38.171 Here. All right? 00:20:38.605 --> 00:20:40.272 - Great. - Good. 00:20:40.873 --> 00:20:41.740 Make yourself comfortable. 00:20:42.509 --> 00:20:43.209 Take a position and Mistress Diana 00:20:44.111 --> 00:20:45.410 - will be with you shortly. - Thank you. 00:20:45.678 --> 00:20:48.447 Okay. 00:20:48.915 --> 00:20:53.853 ( chains rattling ) 00:21:31.690 --> 00:21:36.562 ( exhales ) 00:21:38.030 --> 00:21:42.534 ( scoffs ) 00:21:53.446 --> 00:21:57.984 ( grunts ) 00:21:59.619 --> 00:22:02.654 You're supposed to be kneeling. 00:22:03.323 --> 00:22:07.559 I guess I wanted to talk first. 00:22:10.831 --> 00:22:16.836 Kneel in front of me and we'll have a consultation. 00:22:26.245 --> 00:22:29.282 What do you like? 00:22:29.883 --> 00:22:31.450 I love to be stretched... 00:22:31.951 --> 00:22:35.054 on a rack or on the bed, 00:22:35.955 --> 00:22:38.991 sometimes across a horse. 00:22:39.659 --> 00:22:42.394 I used to take a lot more pain. 00:22:43.296 --> 00:22:43.963 I'm into the more erotic parts of this now. 00:22:44.564 --> 00:22:47.333 You know what a zipper is? 00:22:47.801 --> 00:22:49.168 Yes, I love that, 00:22:50.471 --> 00:22:50.736 but what I'm saying is that for the scene to be successful, 00:22:51.604 --> 00:22:54.240 I need to be touched where the pain is. 00:22:58.010 --> 00:23:02.548 Okay. 00:23:06.819 --> 00:23:09.855 ( chains clinking ) 00:23:10.256 --> 00:23:13.159 ( Peter moans ) 00:23:14.828 --> 00:23:17.930 Suzanne: Spread your legs out. 00:23:19.031 --> 00:23:22.067 More. 00:23:23.070 --> 00:23:27.206 - Are you stretched enough? - Yes, thank you. 00:23:27.774 --> 00:23:30.809 I have very small nipples. 00:23:32.378 --> 00:23:35.414 I think I can find them. 00:23:35.815 --> 00:23:39.985 ( whimpering ) 00:23:45.658 --> 00:23:48.694 Have you done piercing? 00:23:49.662 --> 00:23:50.429 No, that's the only thing I've never tried. 00:23:51.398 --> 00:23:54.133 The sight of the needles makes me wanna pass out. 00:23:54.701 --> 00:23:57.303 Pity. I love piercing. 00:23:58.071 --> 00:24:00.172 - ( chain clinks ) - ( whimpers ) 00:24:00.973 --> 00:24:06.545 ( panting ) 00:24:15.521 --> 00:24:20.626 ( panting ) 00:24:28.534 --> 00:24:33.605 ( chains rattling ) 00:24:42.849 --> 00:24:45.884 That was a terrific session. 00:24:46.586 --> 00:24:48.287 Thank you. I had a good time. 00:24:49.555 --> 00:24:52.591 What days are you on? 00:24:53.760 --> 00:24:55.727 Wednesday afternoon and Thursday and Friday evenings. 00:24:57.264 --> 00:24:58.831 But if you call in advance, I can try to arrange to be here on another day. 00:25:03.302 --> 00:25:06.405 Robert's not my real name. It's, uh... 00:25:07.906 --> 00:25:11.010 it's Peter. 00:25:11.911 --> 00:25:15.014 Is Diana your real name? 00:25:15.815 --> 00:25:21.653 - What do you think? - I guess not. 00:25:22.388 --> 00:25:24.723 - What do you do, Peter? - I'm a... 00:25:25.090 --> 00:25:26.858 a therapist. 00:25:27.627 --> 00:25:28.760 - Really? - You sound surprised. 00:25:29.662 --> 00:25:31.997 Most therapists take a while to admit it. 00:25:34.099 --> 00:25:37.136 Are you married? 00:25:37.370 --> 00:25:39.037 Yes. 00:25:40.207 --> 00:25:41.474 - Do you two play? - No, but she knows that I do it. 00:25:42.441 --> 00:25:45.478 - Hmm. - ( metal clinking ) 00:25:45.945 --> 00:25:47.045 ( knock on door ) 00:25:47.580 --> 00:25:49.948 We're coming right out. 00:25:50.316 --> 00:25:55.221 ( door opens ) 00:25:55.855 --> 00:25:58.890 It's not an affair. 00:25:59.425 --> 00:26:02.995 I could never do that. 00:26:05.732 --> 00:26:08.767 My husband Chris comes from real wealth, 00:26:09.435 --> 00:26:12.104 East Coast Wall Street money, 00:26:13.006 --> 00:26:14.373 and he's quite a few years older than I am. 00:26:15.909 --> 00:26:19.011 Things are all right between us, but... 00:26:20.747 --> 00:26:23.849 I've never actually known any kind of feeling 00:26:24.717 --> 00:26:27.819 that could be called ecstasy with him. 00:26:29.155 --> 00:26:32.258 I didn't even know what an orgasm was until recently. 00:26:35.461 --> 00:26:38.497 We had this huge catered dinner affair, 00:26:39.566 --> 00:26:41.200 some of Chris' clients, valet parking and all that. 00:26:42.001 --> 00:26:44.036 At some point during the evening, 00:26:45.272 --> 00:26:46.705 I was called into the kitchen to resolve some stupid argument 00:26:47.907 --> 00:26:49.708 about what food to bring out next and I noticed the room 00:26:50.543 --> 00:26:53.045 where the staff had left their things. 00:26:53.880 --> 00:26:56.014 And after everyone left the kitchen, 00:26:56.549 --> 00:26:58.984 I went into that room, 00:26:59.786 --> 00:27:00.986 and I opened one of the backpacks. 00:27:01.654 --> 00:27:04.689 And-- and I found some change 00:27:05.725 --> 00:27:08.093 in one of the pockets: quarters, dimes, pennies. 00:27:10.930 --> 00:27:13.965 I felt like I was gonna faint. 00:27:14.734 --> 00:27:17.135 I began to rub the coins together 00:27:18.171 --> 00:27:21.106 between my fingers and then I began to dig my nails 00:27:21.808 --> 00:27:24.843 into the coin's... flesh, 00:27:25.210 --> 00:27:27.513 the surface. 00:27:27.880 --> 00:27:29.214 It was like 00:27:29.682 --> 00:27:31.716 a series of waves. 00:27:32.184 --> 00:27:34.052 That's how I knew. 00:27:34.687 --> 00:27:35.521 It must have been wonderful. 00:27:36.523 --> 00:27:37.756 - It was. - Have these experiences continued? 00:27:38.123 --> 00:27:41.159 Well... 00:27:42.061 --> 00:27:44.329 I felt so guilty about it the first time, 00:27:45.165 --> 00:27:46.231 I was determined never to do it again. 00:27:46.766 --> 00:27:49.000 But I did do it again 00:27:50.069 --> 00:27:51.103 and after a while, I stopped feeling guilty about it. 00:27:51.938 --> 00:27:54.239 But I-- I still would like to know... 00:27:56.509 --> 00:27:59.545 why I get my pleasure this way. 00:28:00.146 --> 00:28:02.281 Because it is restricted. 00:28:03.383 --> 00:28:04.617 Can I ask you a question about something you described? 00:28:05.385 --> 00:28:11.023 - Yes. - Did you keep the coins? 00:28:12.658 --> 00:28:15.761 Well, I only needed a few at a time. 00:28:17.596 --> 00:28:23.135 I never would have given them back. 00:28:24.203 --> 00:28:27.239 ( door opens ) 00:28:27.640 --> 00:28:30.609 ( door closes ) 00:28:31.110 --> 00:28:34.146 You didn't buzz first. 00:28:34.647 --> 00:28:35.914 I'm sorry, I forgot. 00:28:37.016 --> 00:28:38.850 If you don't watch out, you'll lose your key privileges. 00:28:40.786 --> 00:28:43.822 I hope you are not serious. 00:28:44.891 --> 00:28:47.759 I just like to know you're coming up, that's all. 00:28:48.394 --> 00:28:49.928 Not too much to ask, is it? 00:28:50.596 --> 00:28:51.997 What are we arguing about here? 00:28:52.498 --> 00:28:54.299 My right to privacy. 00:28:54.700 --> 00:28:58.571 That's bullshit. 00:28:59.706 --> 00:28:59.838 Suzanne, you don't like the way I do anything these days. 00:29:01.741 --> 00:29:05.944 ( phone ringing ) 00:29:07.347 --> 00:29:10.649 Ugh, could you tell whoever it is I'll call them back, please? 00:29:13.586 --> 00:29:16.622 Hello? 00:29:17.624 --> 00:29:18.524 She's not here right now. Can I take message? 00:29:19.458 --> 00:29:22.494 Juno? 00:29:23.029 --> 00:29:25.497 And she has your number? 00:29:25.898 --> 00:29:28.033 I'll take it. 00:29:29.068 --> 00:29:34.206 This is the woman you used to work for, isn't it? 00:29:34.774 --> 00:29:37.809 Hi, Juno. 00:29:38.410 --> 00:29:42.782 ( computer keys clicking ) 00:29:51.023 --> 00:29:57.463 Let's try again. I know you can get it. 00:30:04.904 --> 00:30:08.006 F... 00:30:08.273 --> 00:30:13.011 free. 00:30:14.247 --> 00:30:17.282 - Let's try it another way. - I don't wanna do this. 00:30:18.184 --> 00:30:19.618 - Let's just see-- - I don't wanna do this! 00:30:20.119 --> 00:30:21.853 - Peter... - No! 00:30:22.187 --> 00:30:26.258 ( sighs ) 00:30:34.300 --> 00:30:37.335 Suzanne on answering machine: Hi, you've reached Suzanne. 00:30:38.204 --> 00:30:39.170 - Please leave a message. - ( beeps ) 00:30:39.839 --> 00:30:42.841 Suzanne, I was-- it's Peter. 00:30:43.877 --> 00:30:45.611 I was wondering if we could get together later? 00:30:46.279 --> 00:30:48.280 Do you think that's a good idea? 00:30:49.549 --> 00:30:50.014 I think it's a good idea. Would you call me back when you-- 00:30:50.549 --> 00:30:54.186 when you get a chance? 00:30:54.753 --> 00:30:57.790 ( sighs ) 00:30:58.257 --> 00:30:59.858 ( knocks on door ) 00:31:00.126 --> 00:31:02.327 Yeah? 00:31:02.661 --> 00:31:04.496 Lisa, hi. 00:31:05.465 --> 00:31:05.964 I've got one of the Board of Directors up front. 00:31:06.231 --> 00:31:08.199 Shit. 00:31:09.135 --> 00:31:09.668 I'm not even close to ready with this thing. 00:31:10.637 --> 00:31:12.070 I told them I wasn't sure if you'd left yet. 00:31:12.872 --> 00:31:15.540 - If you don't mind. - No problem. 00:31:15.808 --> 00:31:19.778 Thanks. 00:31:43.736 --> 00:31:46.772 ( groans ) 00:31:47.407 --> 00:31:48.974 You may open your eyes now. 00:31:49.641 --> 00:31:52.678 ( groans ) 00:31:53.446 --> 00:31:54.546 You're fighting it today, Peter. 00:31:54.947 --> 00:31:56.281 Yeah, I know. 00:31:56.815 --> 00:31:58.350 ( whispers ) I know. 00:31:59.385 --> 00:32:02.420 Let the control go. Come on, you're experienced. 00:32:03.289 --> 00:32:07.593 - You know how to do this. - ( sighs ) 00:32:07.893 --> 00:32:10.929 Hey. 00:32:11.297 --> 00:32:15.601 ( chuckles ) 00:32:43.929 --> 00:32:49.802 ( inhales sharply, groans ) 00:32:55.908 --> 00:32:59.011 ( groans ) 00:32:59.979 --> 00:33:03.014 You really have runner's legs. 00:33:03.649 --> 00:33:05.684 Not too much to grab on to. 00:33:06.451 --> 00:33:11.356 ( groans ) 00:33:18.597 --> 00:33:21.700 Let your body lead the way. 00:33:22.301 --> 00:33:27.673 I wanna be taken apart. 00:33:28.740 --> 00:33:33.578 ( whimpering ) 00:33:37.649 --> 00:33:40.685 Thank you. 00:33:41.053 --> 00:33:42.688 ( panting ) 00:33:43.622 --> 00:33:46.658 Are you ready to worship me? 00:33:46.892 --> 00:33:48.961 Yes. 00:33:49.628 --> 00:33:52.664 Yes? 00:33:52.898 --> 00:33:56.935 Yes. 00:34:00.473 --> 00:34:03.575 The year I turned 16 was the most horrible year of my whole life. 00:34:07.179 --> 00:34:10.214 We had just arrived from Germany to finally join my father, 00:34:10.482 --> 00:34:13.418 but... 00:34:14.353 --> 00:34:15.386 my parents' marriage was always a disaster 00:34:16.188 --> 00:34:17.990 and he basically left right away. 00:34:18.992 --> 00:34:21.660 He came to visit me and my brother sometimes. 00:34:22.628 --> 00:34:25.664 And then, some months later, around Christmas, 00:34:26.833 --> 00:34:29.167 he just crashed into this truck in the middle of nowhere. 00:34:29.835 --> 00:34:32.871 Boom. 00:34:33.406 --> 00:34:35.373 Life, I can tell you. 00:34:35.974 --> 00:34:38.877 Were you-- were you close? 00:34:39.378 --> 00:34:40.512 - To him? - Yeah. 00:34:41.547 --> 00:34:42.447 I was his favorite. I wanted it to be that way. 00:34:43.082 --> 00:34:46.184 I think I even flirted with him. 00:34:48.020 --> 00:34:51.123 In fact, I know I did. 00:34:51.924 --> 00:34:57.062 - Did anything... - No. 00:34:57.430 --> 00:35:00.431 Not with him, 00:35:01.400 --> 00:35:03.135 but my mother always hated how close we were. 00:35:04.703 --> 00:35:07.739 She was jealous. 00:35:08.541 --> 00:35:09.240 She-- she always punished everyone 00:35:10.075 --> 00:35:12.443 for her own unhappiness her whole life. 00:35:13.613 --> 00:35:17.916 Just like she punished me and my brother when my dad died. 00:35:18.517 --> 00:35:21.252 She was so cold and removed. 00:35:22.087 --> 00:35:23.388 Sometimes when people are in shock-- 00:35:24.156 --> 00:35:24.823 Look, Peter, I have a therapist. 00:35:25.925 --> 00:35:26.624 I talk to her once a week, I don't need another one. 00:35:27.092 --> 00:35:29.227 Yeah, yeah, right. 00:35:31.597 --> 00:35:38.169 I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be so harsh. 00:35:43.909 --> 00:35:46.945 - I should go. - I'll get you a cab. 00:35:47.914 --> 00:35:48.981 - No, I like walking. - I'll walk with you. 00:35:49.548 --> 00:35:54.719 No, I like walking alone. 00:36:11.170 --> 00:36:17.075 ( Peter pants ) 00:36:59.885 --> 00:37:02.921 Stop. 00:37:03.455 --> 00:37:08.259 Please let me continue. 00:37:11.830 --> 00:37:14.933 Let me... smell you. 00:37:15.467 --> 00:37:20.172 ( chuckles ) 00:37:25.578 --> 00:37:30.348 ( Peter panting ) 00:37:38.556 --> 00:37:43.461 Lie down. 00:37:44.396 --> 00:37:50.401 Lie down, Peter. We only have a few minutes left. 00:37:53.238 --> 00:37:57.776 ( sighs ) 00:38:03.848 --> 00:38:06.885 ( exhales ) 00:38:07.252 --> 00:38:11.522 ( panting ) 00:38:34.546 --> 00:38:39.651 ( moaning ) 00:38:52.397 --> 00:38:55.433 Suzanne: I remember being so bored that summer. 00:38:56.335 --> 00:38:58.303 Also terrified of trying to make friends. 00:38:59.371 --> 00:39:02.406 I ended up hanging out with this kid Tim. 00:39:03.074 --> 00:39:05.543 I guess I thought he was cute, 00:39:06.311 --> 00:39:07.312 but mostly I just needed not to be 00:39:08.114 --> 00:39:09.580 the new girl with the weird accent. 00:39:10.415 --> 00:39:12.784 When I gave him the blow job that day, 00:39:13.953 --> 00:39:17.022 I actually remember feeling proud of myself afterwards. 00:39:18.757 --> 00:39:21.793 I never knew if Tim meant to tell everybody like that 00:39:22.427 --> 00:39:24.929 or if it just got around... 00:39:25.263 --> 00:39:27.765 ( sighs ) 00:39:28.433 --> 00:39:29.234 ...but by then it didn't matter. 00:39:29.835 --> 00:39:31.736 Why am I telling you this? 00:39:32.638 --> 00:39:33.571 You hear these kind of stories every day. 00:39:34.606 --> 00:39:35.573 I don't think that's the point. I was gonna say... 00:39:36.675 --> 00:39:38.276 if it didn't still hurt, you wouldn't have brought it up. 00:39:39.245 --> 00:39:41.913 Come on, Peter. Even you must hold on to things 00:39:42.681 --> 00:39:45.416 that irritated you a long time ago. 00:39:45.750 --> 00:39:47.518 Of course. 00:39:48.019 --> 00:39:48.953 So, what? Tell me. 00:39:49.722 --> 00:39:51.555 Things at school. School things. 00:39:52.591 --> 00:39:53.524 Things I couldn't seem to make them understand. 00:39:53.925 --> 00:39:58.429 I tried it... 00:39:59.631 --> 00:40:04.369 every time I'd talk, everything seemed to come out wrong. 00:40:04.836 --> 00:40:07.939 It was shameful. 00:40:08.941 --> 00:40:11.976 I get mad about it. Makes me... 00:40:12.945 --> 00:40:15.780 Even now, people correct the way I say something, 00:40:16.782 --> 00:40:18.916 I sit there for days going over it in my head. 00:40:19.752 --> 00:40:22.687 More and more terrified of losing it. 00:40:23.188 --> 00:40:25.723 Jesus, listen to us. 00:40:26.057 --> 00:40:29.093 What? 00:40:29.962 --> 00:40:31.129 Talking about our childhood like this. 00:40:32.331 --> 00:40:33.497 People talk to me about this sort of thing all the time. 00:40:34.967 --> 00:40:36.000 That's exactly the reason why we should be talking about other things. 00:40:36.535 --> 00:40:41.539 I like listening to you. 00:40:42.541 --> 00:40:45.410 I think we've established on plenty of occasions 00:40:46.579 --> 00:40:48.012 that your intentions aren't as innocent as that, Peter. 00:40:49.782 --> 00:40:52.817 - What's going on? - Nothing. 00:40:53.485 --> 00:40:54.752 You didn't like me touching you? 00:40:55.353 --> 00:40:56.754 It's what I saw behind it. 00:40:57.222 --> 00:40:58.856 What did you see? 00:40:59.458 --> 00:41:01.092 How much more you wanted. 00:41:02.194 --> 00:41:04.662 - During our sessions together-- - That wasn't me, okay? 00:41:05.263 --> 00:41:06.530 You wanted to go out, too. 00:41:06.798 --> 00:41:08.532 I know. 00:41:09.334 --> 00:41:13.271 I just need to do it my way, okay? 00:41:13.973 --> 00:41:19.610 I will be back. I will be back. 00:41:22.080 --> 00:41:27.185 ( silent ) 00:41:49.541 --> 00:41:54.979 Do my legs now. 00:42:31.750 --> 00:42:34.852 ( moans ) 00:42:35.887 --> 00:42:40.425 ( sighs ) 00:42:51.035 --> 00:42:54.071 ( moans ) 00:42:54.573 --> 00:42:57.808 ( leather creaking ) 00:42:58.944 --> 00:43:02.046 Do you want me to take this off? 00:43:03.682 --> 00:43:06.717 You know that's against the rules. 00:43:07.352 --> 00:43:09.720 Do they apply to us anymore? 00:43:10.789 --> 00:43:11.856 - The rules are there to protect us. - I know. 00:43:14.226 --> 00:43:17.261 ( shouting ) You don't sleep with your patients! 00:43:18.197 --> 00:43:23.602 - That's not the same thing. - For me it is. 00:43:30.542 --> 00:43:33.578 It's time to jerk off. 00:43:33.812 --> 00:43:36.180 Aah! 00:43:36.548 --> 00:43:40.818 ( chuckles ) 00:43:50.128 --> 00:43:55.233 ( moaning ) 00:44:01.306 --> 00:44:04.409 I want you to come for me. 00:44:06.144 --> 00:44:11.249 ( panting ) 00:44:14.352 --> 00:44:17.455 Suzanne! Suzanne. 00:44:18.089 --> 00:44:23.194 ( groaning ) 00:44:31.136 --> 00:44:36.040 ( train clacking in distance ) 00:44:43.448 --> 00:44:48.553 ( indistinct chattering ) 00:44:52.157 --> 00:44:56.794 ( cash register bell dings ) 00:45:08.673 --> 00:45:11.709 Hello, my dear. 00:45:12.311 --> 00:45:14.278 Don't you look wonderful. 00:45:15.246 --> 00:45:18.282 Not even a kiss hello? 00:45:19.017 --> 00:45:23.154 Too late, I'm already sitting. 00:45:25.690 --> 00:45:28.726 What would you like, dear? 00:45:29.328 --> 00:45:30.528 Decaf cappuccino, please. 00:45:30.896 --> 00:45:32.630 No caffeine? 00:45:33.031 --> 00:45:36.267 You've changed. 00:45:38.904 --> 00:45:41.939 So tell me, 00:45:42.774 --> 00:45:44.575 what have you been doing with yourself 00:45:45.210 --> 00:45:46.777 since you left the business? 00:45:47.378 --> 00:45:48.245 Working on my art mostly. 00:45:48.580 --> 00:45:50.748 That all? 00:45:51.116 --> 00:45:52.816 It's a lot. 00:45:53.217 --> 00:45:54.786 I'm sure. Yes. 00:45:56.454 --> 00:45:59.490 And the girlfriend? 00:45:59.891 --> 00:46:02.293 What about her? 00:46:03.128 --> 00:46:03.894 I always thought you'd end up with a man. 00:46:06.365 --> 00:46:09.467 Oh, I suppose there's still plenty of time for that. 00:46:11.970 --> 00:46:15.005 I'm not going back to work for you, you know? 00:46:15.540 --> 00:46:17.841 Of course I do, honey. 00:46:18.209 --> 00:46:19.677 No, no, I-- 00:46:20.279 --> 00:46:22.012 I have something specific 00:46:22.847 --> 00:46:24.148 I thought you might be interested in. 00:46:24.749 --> 00:46:26.350 A very lucrative something 00:46:27.185 --> 00:46:29.353 down in Philadelphia. An old regular. 00:46:29.921 --> 00:46:32.956 I imagine you could 00:46:33.625 --> 00:46:35.826 make enough to support yourself 00:46:36.360 --> 00:46:37.895 for two or three months. 00:46:39.497 --> 00:46:42.533 Do people still ask for me? 00:46:43.101 --> 00:46:45.202 Oh, yes. They miss you. 00:46:46.204 --> 00:46:48.506 I wonder if you know why you're so good at it, 00:46:49.374 --> 00:46:52.376 why the customers really do miss you. 00:46:53.345 --> 00:46:56.414 You really could create the feeling of intimacy. 00:46:58.483 --> 00:47:01.519 Fake intimacy, 00:47:02.521 --> 00:47:04.655 but that's why the customers kept coming back. 00:47:05.190 --> 00:47:08.292 Maybe, but so what? 00:47:08.927 --> 00:47:12.029 You're still perverse. 00:47:13.064 --> 00:47:17.935 There's more than one way to express that. 00:47:18.803 --> 00:47:21.272 I am sorry, Juno. I can't help you out. 00:47:22.807 --> 00:47:27.545 Have it your way. 00:47:28.280 --> 00:47:30.815 You won't hold it against me, now. 00:47:32.050 --> 00:47:37.755 That would be unprofitable for both of us. 00:47:38.923 --> 00:47:41.959 ( dial tone ) 00:47:42.326 --> 00:47:43.894 ( dialing ) 00:47:44.295 --> 00:47:46.731 ( line ringing ) 00:47:47.199 --> 00:47:49.767 ( phone ringing ) 00:47:54.572 --> 00:47:57.608 Hi. 00:47:58.377 --> 00:48:00.177 I'm fine. Working on a new panel. 00:48:02.246 --> 00:48:05.282 ( sighs ) 00:48:06.318 --> 00:48:07.318 I'm not sure I'm ready to see you again so soon. 00:48:07.852 --> 00:48:10.888 I know, I know. 00:48:11.690 --> 00:48:14.625 I just need a little bit more time. 00:48:15.227 --> 00:48:16.226 I'm pretty busy right now. 00:48:16.627 --> 00:48:19.564 I'll call you. 00:48:20.432 --> 00:48:23.534 All right, next week sounds good. 00:48:24.201 --> 00:48:27.237 Okay. 00:48:27.572 --> 00:48:29.273 You, too. 00:48:29.674 --> 00:48:33.845 ( phone beeps ) 00:48:34.913 --> 00:48:39.717 ( sighs ) 00:48:54.099 --> 00:48:59.203 ( silent ) 00:49:03.275 --> 00:49:06.310 - Have you read this? - Mm-mm. 00:49:06.945 --> 00:49:09.446 - Well, I have. - Really? 00:49:09.714 --> 00:49:12.316 Yeah. 00:49:13.084 --> 00:49:13.784 Wasn't one just like last year's? 00:49:14.453 --> 00:49:15.720 Well, there's nothing new here. 00:49:16.421 --> 00:49:17.187 - Let me tell you. - Really? 00:49:18.022 --> 00:49:18.656 I mean, look at this chapter right here. 00:49:19.057 --> 00:49:20.892 I know. I know. 00:49:21.660 --> 00:49:23.293 Ugh, but, my God, he's amazing. 00:49:24.095 --> 00:49:25.496 It's his third book in three years. 00:49:26.164 --> 00:49:27.832 Have you read this month's issue 00:49:28.667 --> 00:49:29.734 - of "Psychoanalytic Thought"? - No. 00:49:30.869 --> 00:49:32.069 Well, my essay on countertransference in young adults, 00:49:33.171 --> 00:49:35.573 - deals with a lot of the same issues-- - Really? 00:49:36.141 --> 00:49:37.975 - Yes! - Oh, please. 00:49:38.844 --> 00:49:40.477 I don't know where he gets this stuff. 00:49:41.413 --> 00:49:44.782 - Well, he's got a good publisher. - Huh. 00:49:45.383 --> 00:49:50.254 ( indistinct conversations ) 00:50:01.867 --> 00:50:07.338 Suzanne: How come you're always in corners, Peter? 00:50:18.249 --> 00:50:23.086 ( dance music playing ) 00:50:34.332 --> 00:50:39.436 ( indistinct chatter ) 00:50:45.877 --> 00:50:50.982 ( slapping ) 00:52:16.000 --> 00:52:19.036 You're terrific to watch. 00:52:19.304 --> 00:52:20.971 Thanks. 00:52:21.873 --> 00:52:25.576 - You ever do men? - It's usually men I do. 00:52:26.511 --> 00:52:28.712 I haven't done a public scene for a long time. 00:52:29.614 --> 00:52:32.482 Looking for someone to corrupt you, huh? 00:52:32.883 --> 00:52:35.052 Ah, maybe so. 00:52:35.687 --> 00:52:36.887 - You straight? - Uh-huh. 00:52:37.522 --> 00:52:38.689 - You married? - Uh-huh. 00:52:39.157 --> 00:52:40.724 What's your name? 00:52:40.992 --> 00:52:43.193 Peter. 00:52:44.228 --> 00:52:45.763 Go to the bar and get me a bottle of water, Peter. 00:52:47.198 --> 00:52:50.300 Go. 00:52:51.002 --> 00:52:55.806 I'll take a water. 00:52:58.909 --> 00:53:03.614 Keep the change. 00:53:15.092 --> 00:53:18.129 You ready? 00:53:18.463 --> 00:53:19.196 I'm ready. 00:53:19.898 --> 00:53:21.498 What would you like me to do? 00:53:23.100 --> 00:53:26.137 I want you to go over there, 00:53:26.738 --> 00:53:28.271 take off all your clothes, 00:53:28.672 --> 00:53:30.407 and wait for me. 00:53:31.710 --> 00:53:32.709 People will stop and stare, but they're not allowed to touch. 00:53:33.545 --> 00:53:35.146 - You know that, right? - ( chuckles ) 00:53:36.614 --> 00:53:39.650 - Yes. - You can call me Mistress Terry. 00:53:40.151 --> 00:53:45.189 Yes, Mistress Terry. 00:53:47.258 --> 00:53:51.762 Go. 00:54:07.545 --> 00:54:10.580 Since this is our first time together, 00:54:11.249 --> 00:54:12.315 I'm gonna take it really slow. 00:54:12.983 --> 00:54:14.952 I'm gonna handcuff your wrists, 00:54:15.854 --> 00:54:16.520 but your feet are gonna stay on the floor. 00:54:17.188 --> 00:54:19.957 Say "Thank you, Mistress Terry." 00:54:20.558 --> 00:54:22.026 Thank you, Mistress Terry. 00:54:22.493 --> 00:54:24.962 Raise your hands. 00:54:25.229 --> 00:54:27.164 Good. 00:54:27.665 --> 00:54:28.632 ( chains clinking ) 00:54:29.100 --> 00:54:32.736 ( crop slapping ) 00:54:41.679 --> 00:54:44.715 Peter, Peter, relax. 00:54:45.049 --> 00:54:47.551 ( laughs ) 00:54:48.453 --> 00:54:49.353 This is supposed to make you feel good. 00:54:51.089 --> 00:54:54.124 The safety word is "mercy". You say "mercy" and the scene is over. 00:54:54.893 --> 00:54:57.527 We don't go on to something else. 00:54:58.396 --> 00:54:59.730 - We stop. - Thank you, Mistress Terry. 00:55:00.364 --> 00:55:02.233 Let me hear you say "mercy". 00:55:02.767 --> 00:55:08.038 - Mercy. - Good boy. 00:55:08.807 --> 00:55:11.242 You have the option of a blindfold. 00:55:12.210 --> 00:55:13.177 I'd like to keep my eyes open, Mistress Terry. 00:55:13.444 --> 00:55:15.879 Okay. 00:55:16.648 --> 00:55:19.683 - Kiss it. - Kiss it? 00:55:20.217 --> 00:55:23.754 ( whispers ) Kiss it. 00:55:24.322 --> 00:55:27.424 ( panting ) 00:55:28.192 --> 00:55:31.228 - ( slapping ) - ( gasping ) 00:55:32.130 --> 00:55:34.731 - ( groaning ) - ( chuckles ) How's that? 00:55:35.099 --> 00:55:36.533 Fine, fine. 00:55:37.168 --> 00:55:38.602 - ( slaps ) - ( pants ) 00:55:38.936 --> 00:55:40.670 ( groans ) 00:55:41.305 --> 00:55:43.874 - ( slaps ) - ( grunts ) 00:55:44.241 --> 00:55:46.743 ( chuckles ) 00:55:47.378 --> 00:55:51.048 - ( slaps ) - ( grunts ) 00:55:59.556 --> 00:56:04.295 Aah! 00:56:06.698 --> 00:56:09.733 - ( slaps ) - Aah! 00:56:10.501 --> 00:56:12.102 ( whispers ) Mercy. Mer-- mercy. 00:56:12.769 --> 00:56:15.806 Mercy... 00:56:16.073 --> 00:56:18.142 mercy. 00:56:18.509 --> 00:56:20.710 ( panting ) 00:56:21.111 --> 00:56:22.246 Are you sure? 00:56:22.714 --> 00:56:24.114 You know my rule. 00:56:24.615 --> 00:56:30.087 Yes, Mistress Terry. 00:56:30.555 --> 00:56:35.492 ( chains rattling ) 00:56:36.895 --> 00:56:39.997 - I'm sorry about earlier. - Aw, you didn't like my punishment? 00:56:40.698 --> 00:56:43.733 Oh, no. You were great. 00:56:44.068 --> 00:56:45.568 It was me. 00:56:45.903 --> 00:56:47.437 I just... 00:56:47.971 --> 00:56:49.173 didn't have it tonight. 00:56:49.407 --> 00:56:51.141 Mm. 00:56:51.843 --> 00:56:53.010 Well, I'm here most weekends. 00:56:54.212 --> 00:56:57.314 I'd be happy to try again with you, Peter. 00:56:59.950 --> 00:57:03.053 If you want. 00:57:03.554 --> 00:57:08.058 Thanks. 00:57:14.599 --> 00:57:17.634 Suzanne on answering machine: Hi, you've reached Suzanne. 00:57:18.502 --> 00:57:19.136 - Please leave a message. - ( beeps ) 00:57:20.272 --> 00:57:21.972 Peter on answering machine: Suzanne, it's Peter again. 00:57:22.874 --> 00:57:25.508 I haven't heard from you in a little while. 00:57:26.176 --> 00:57:27.878 I hope everything's all right. 00:57:29.114 --> 00:57:31.114 I was wondering if you wanted to get together tomorrow night. 00:57:32.183 --> 00:57:33.850 I'm seeing a patient at six, but I'm free after that. 00:57:35.652 --> 00:57:38.755 Call me. 00:57:39.423 --> 00:57:42.459 I miss you. 00:57:42.794 --> 00:57:44.895 ( beeps ) 00:57:45.296 --> 00:57:46.397 ( door opens ) 00:57:47.232 --> 00:57:51.068 Suzanne: Did you see my red nail polish? 00:57:53.304 --> 00:57:58.708 Miko, did you hear me? 00:57:59.143 --> 00:58:02.179 What is it? 00:58:02.580 --> 00:58:06.616 Who is Peter? 00:58:07.451 --> 00:58:10.487 A friend. 00:58:11.222 --> 00:58:14.258 He sounded like something else. 00:58:15.059 --> 00:58:17.560 I don't like the way you said that. 00:58:17.961 --> 00:58:19.863 Was he client? 00:58:20.464 --> 00:58:23.133 Why would you think that? 00:58:23.734 --> 00:58:28.972 Where else you meet a man? 00:58:29.874 --> 00:58:32.909 He is a former client... 00:58:33.778 --> 00:58:36.380 but I happen to have other male friends 00:58:36.981 --> 00:58:39.582 from all parts of my life. 00:58:40.250 --> 00:58:41.551 You are changing the subject. 00:58:41.918 --> 00:58:43.620 No, I'm not. 00:58:44.722 --> 00:58:44.788 You are acting as if you don't know I've had boyfriends. 00:58:45.389 --> 00:58:47.690 So, he was boyfriend, too? 00:58:48.091 --> 00:58:50.227 No! Don't... 00:58:50.761 --> 00:58:52.563 change things around! 00:58:53.564 --> 00:58:56.599 I thought 00:58:57.501 --> 00:58:58.668 you didn't see your client outside work. 00:59:00.671 --> 00:59:03.706 I thought 00:59:04.341 --> 00:59:09.046 that was breaking the rule. 00:59:11.515 --> 00:59:14.551 I don't work there anymore. 00:59:14.886 --> 00:59:16.586 Remember? 00:59:17.555 --> 00:59:22.993 Argue your way out of it like always you do... 00:59:23.928 --> 00:59:26.963 but I saw guilt on your face when I asked you. 00:59:27.565 --> 00:59:30.133 ( sighs ) Don't leave. 00:59:30.401 --> 00:59:32.769 Let's... 00:59:33.637 --> 00:59:39.243 Fuck this, Suzanne. Fuck all of this. 00:59:40.944 --> 00:59:43.980 ( sighs ) 00:59:45.149 --> 00:59:46.983 Peter on answering machine: I'm seeing a patient at six, 00:59:47.518 --> 00:59:48.685 but I'm free after that. 00:59:48.952 --> 00:59:51.321 Call me. 00:59:52.289 --> 00:59:55.325 I miss you. 00:59:55.659 --> 00:59:58.995 ( beeps ) 01:00:01.998 --> 01:00:06.836 ( dialing ) 01:00:07.571 --> 01:00:10.541 - ( line ringing ) - Woman: Hello? 01:00:10.775 --> 01:00:12.675 Yes, 01:00:13.510 --> 01:00:14.844 I would like to speak to Juno, please. 01:00:15.479 --> 01:00:20.683 ( indistinct chatter ) 01:01:03.694 --> 01:01:09.065 ( doorbell rings ) 01:01:40.865 --> 01:01:45.902 Hello, Walter. 01:01:48.672 --> 01:01:51.708 It's been quite a while. 01:01:52.210 --> 01:01:55.178 Yes, Mistress Diana. 01:01:56.113 --> 01:01:59.616 I don't come back East very often anymore. 01:02:00.751 --> 01:02:03.786 May I say something, Mistress Diana? 01:02:04.354 --> 01:02:06.256 - Speak. - ( exhales ) 01:02:07.158 --> 01:02:08.758 I was hoping for the red leather outfit. 01:02:09.593 --> 01:02:13.664 You know black makes me uncomfortable. 01:02:18.135 --> 01:02:21.238 Are you telling the mistress what she should wear? 01:02:22.407 --> 01:02:25.442 I was only hoping that since I am paying for this-- 01:02:26.377 --> 01:02:28.077 ( shouting ) This is all they've got here! 01:02:28.946 --> 01:02:29.680 Next time you have to come to New York! 01:02:29.947 --> 01:02:34.317 Get up. 01:02:44.762 --> 01:02:47.797 Put those on your ankles. 01:02:48.632 --> 01:02:50.133 - ( jingling ) - Uh-oh, look at you, 01:02:50.901 --> 01:02:53.236 - clumsy, stupid. - ( jingling ) 01:02:55.273 --> 01:02:58.308 ( panting ) Mistress, Diana. 01:02:59.243 --> 01:03:01.144 You know I need you to speak more softly. 01:03:01.979 --> 01:03:03.213 It's important. The tone is not right. 01:03:04.115 --> 01:03:07.150 If you continue to speak like this, 01:03:07.952 --> 01:03:09.519 I'm going to fix you with a ball gag. 01:03:09.853 --> 01:03:12.355 ( sighs ) 01:03:13.124 --> 01:03:16.159 - Please, Mistress-- - Shut up! 01:03:16.994 --> 01:03:21.565 Walk over to the rack and don't move! 01:03:29.473 --> 01:03:32.509 I know you're looking at me. 01:03:33.144 --> 01:03:38.181 Keep your eyes on the wall. 01:03:42.153 --> 01:03:45.188 Put this on your wee wee. 01:03:45.722 --> 01:03:47.190 No, Mistress, please. 01:03:47.591 --> 01:03:48.658 Come on, do it! 01:03:49.494 --> 01:03:50.260 I don't want you dripping on the floor. 01:03:50.995 --> 01:03:54.230 - It's disgusting. - ( sighs ) 01:04:02.306 --> 01:04:05.341 May I say something, Mistress, please? 01:04:05.742 --> 01:04:08.344 What, Walter? 01:04:09.280 --> 01:04:10.447 It is important that you touch me correctly. 01:04:11.115 --> 01:04:12.415 That-- that-- is just not right. 01:04:12.916 --> 01:04:18.488 I've had it, Walter. 01:04:32.536 --> 01:04:35.572 - Open your mouth. - ( grunts ) 01:04:35.973 --> 01:04:37.907 Open your mouth! 01:04:38.909 --> 01:04:40.076 I'm not in the mood to put up with this today. 01:04:40.711 --> 01:04:46.516 I'm really not in the mood. 01:04:46.850 --> 01:04:49.753 ( mumbles ) 01:04:50.722 --> 01:04:56.993 And I don't wanna hear another sound from you. 01:05:47.677 --> 01:05:50.781 ( panting ) 01:05:51.615 --> 01:05:56.720 ( Walter whimpering ) 01:06:12.670 --> 01:06:15.705 I don't believe we're gonna be able to continue these sessions 01:06:16.741 --> 01:06:18.642 until your whip technique improves significantly. 01:06:20.344 --> 01:06:23.379 And I believe your session has come to an end, 01:06:24.281 --> 01:06:26.883 unless you wish to pay for another hour. 01:06:27.718 --> 01:06:29.886 And you do need to work on that voice. 01:06:30.521 --> 01:06:32.255 It's still not quite right. 01:06:32.923 --> 01:06:37.226 Don't try to top me, Walter. 01:06:47.171 --> 01:06:52.275 Thank you. 01:07:09.193 --> 01:07:14.297 ( laughing ) 01:07:48.899 --> 01:07:54.004 ( crying ) 01:08:12.722 --> 01:08:15.825 ( cell phone ringing ) 01:08:16.993 --> 01:08:20.030 Hello? 01:08:20.598 --> 01:08:24.400 Steve? What's going on? 01:08:39.616 --> 01:08:44.387 ( sighs ) 01:09:01.471 --> 01:09:06.242 ( chuckles ) 01:09:10.680 --> 01:09:13.716 No, no. 01:09:14.785 --> 01:09:15.551 Yeah, of course I'll let you know what's happening. 01:09:16.420 --> 01:09:18.220 What I'd really like to do is to, um... 01:09:18.989 --> 01:09:21.490 escape up there with you. Yeah. 01:09:22.025 --> 01:09:24.160 Have you talked to May? 01:09:25.096 --> 01:09:26.029 No, I haven't either, but she's in Venice. 01:09:26.897 --> 01:09:28.598 I got a postcard from her. Yeah, sure. 01:09:29.065 --> 01:09:31.034 Uh, Pat, hold on. 01:09:31.936 --> 01:09:32.602 - I have another call. - ( phone beeps ) 01:09:32.869 --> 01:09:35.105 Yeah? 01:09:35.639 --> 01:09:40.844 Suzanne? What is it? 01:10:25.622 --> 01:10:28.658 You blew up the reproductions from the book I gave you. 01:10:29.125 --> 01:10:33.863 You don't like it? 01:10:33.897 --> 01:10:39.569 No, I think this is great. 01:10:43.040 --> 01:10:46.075 I wanted to apologize for being so out of touch lately. 01:10:46.844 --> 01:10:51.081 It's fine, don't worry about it. 01:10:51.548 --> 01:10:54.583 Are you all right? 01:10:55.552 --> 01:10:56.352 Well, I had a tough day at the clinic yesterday. 01:10:57.020 --> 01:11:02.959 Uh, so, I'm glad I'm here. 01:11:03.861 --> 01:11:06.462 I haven't seen my mother in close to a year. 01:11:07.297 --> 01:11:08.497 She doesn't know anything about my life. 01:11:09.299 --> 01:11:12.168 Whatever you want to say about me... 01:11:12.568 --> 01:11:15.604 us... 01:11:16.239 --> 01:11:20.777 She probably won't even ask. 01:11:34.090 --> 01:11:37.193 - Hey. - Hey. 01:11:37.994 --> 01:11:41.030 So you get lost or somethin'? 01:11:41.298 --> 01:11:42.765 No, why? 01:11:43.567 --> 01:11:44.433 How long did it take us to get here? 01:11:45.502 --> 01:11:46.569 I don't know, I just thought you'd be here sooner. 01:11:47.703 --> 01:11:50.740 We drove right out 01:11:51.942 --> 01:11:52.275 and if it wasn't for my friend Peter offering to bring me, 01:11:52.943 --> 01:11:55.178 it would've taken much longer. 01:11:55.879 --> 01:11:58.181 Oh, um, Steve, this is Peter. 01:11:58.816 --> 01:12:01.117 Peter. Nice to meet you. 01:12:02.319 --> 01:12:05.354 Should we go inside? 01:12:05.621 --> 01:12:10.359 Yeah. 01:12:21.438 --> 01:12:24.540 Why didn't you tell me you had gone in for a biopsy? 01:12:26.376 --> 01:12:29.411 I didn't want to make a big deal of it until I knew. 01:12:30.447 --> 01:12:33.416 I would like to be there for your next appointment. 01:12:35.052 --> 01:12:38.087 I'm sorry for this horribly morbid introduction to our family. 01:12:38.856 --> 01:12:41.757 No, no. I'm sorry about your news. 01:12:42.960 --> 01:12:45.161 Are you sure you don't want a cup of coffee or somethin'? 01:12:45.562 --> 01:12:47.563 Uh, okay, sure. 01:12:48.298 --> 01:12:53.435 I'll, uh-- I'll come with you. 01:12:59.008 --> 01:13:02.111 ( speaking German ) 01:13:03.847 --> 01:13:06.949 I have been busy with this new art project I'm working on. 01:13:10.320 --> 01:13:13.356 And the temp job? 01:13:13.690 --> 01:13:15.091 ( sighs ) 01:13:15.959 --> 01:13:16.592 I only do that work to make ends meet. 01:13:17.360 --> 01:13:19.695 What is the new art project about? 01:13:21.931 --> 01:13:27.303 It's not about one thing. 01:13:34.078 --> 01:13:37.180 It was kind of your friend to drive you over here. 01:13:39.583 --> 01:13:42.618 What does he do? 01:13:43.086 --> 01:13:45.254 He's a therapist. 01:13:45.722 --> 01:13:46.922 Not yours, I hope. 01:13:47.891 --> 01:13:49.025 - No, but what does that-- - Don't get upset. 01:13:49.559 --> 01:13:54.430 I was only half serious. 01:13:54.730 --> 01:13:57.599 ( sighs ) 01:13:58.401 --> 01:14:00.069 I came here to talk about you, Mom. 01:14:00.437 --> 01:14:02.738 I'm worried. 01:14:03.707 --> 01:14:04.307 Save your worry for when things get really bad. 01:14:05.808 --> 01:14:08.844 Stephen? 01:14:09.947 --> 01:14:12.348 He'll help you get the guest room arranged upstairs. 01:14:13.683 --> 01:14:16.719 We're not staying the night. 01:14:17.788 --> 01:14:19.322 You came all the way out here just to leave again? 01:14:19.856 --> 01:14:22.825 Peter has to go back. 01:14:23.426 --> 01:14:25.794 Did you just call me, Ma? 01:14:26.630 --> 01:14:32.001 You'll stay for dinner at least, I hope. 01:14:37.674 --> 01:14:40.709 So do I get to see 01:14:41.244 --> 01:14:42.144 this project sometime? 01:14:42.679 --> 01:14:47.283 If you come to New York. 01:14:50.087 --> 01:14:53.189 Are you still in the same space near that loud bridge? 01:14:54.291 --> 01:14:57.393 - ( Peter chuckles ) - Yes, and it's not that loud. 01:14:59.763 --> 01:15:04.867 As long as you're happy. 01:15:07.203 --> 01:15:10.239 I am. 01:15:10.507 --> 01:15:14.810 Good. 01:15:16.746 --> 01:15:19.782 So, Peter, 01:15:20.684 --> 01:15:22.118 I didn't catch what you did in the city. 01:15:23.354 --> 01:15:24.653 - He analyzes people like us. - ( Peter chuckles nervously ) 01:15:25.221 --> 01:15:27.923 I'm a-- I'm a therapist. 01:15:28.591 --> 01:15:30.926 You don't find it depressing? 01:15:31.695 --> 01:15:34.530 Uh, no. Why would you think that? 01:15:34.998 --> 01:15:37.199 See, I was right. 01:15:37.868 --> 01:15:42.205 You can't help analyzing people. 01:15:56.118 --> 01:15:59.155 You're welcome to stay over. 01:15:59.656 --> 01:16:02.892 We need to go back. 01:16:03.926 --> 01:16:06.962 What? 01:16:07.764 --> 01:16:09.131 I don't really know what to do here. 01:16:09.666 --> 01:16:11.733 Why don't you go home? 01:16:12.669 --> 01:16:13.202 She can always call if she needs anything. 01:16:13.737 --> 01:16:14.870 No, I mean, in general. 01:16:15.204 --> 01:16:17.306 ( sighs ) 01:16:18.676 --> 01:16:19.609 Don't imagine the worst yet. A lot of people make it through this. 01:16:22.144 --> 01:16:25.181 Hey. 01:16:26.116 --> 01:16:27.483 Is this all about me not staying the night? 01:16:28.920 --> 01:16:29.586 No, but it would be nice to think that maybe you'd be around sometimes 01:16:30.286 --> 01:16:33.322 if we need your help. 01:16:34.157 --> 01:16:35.757 Let's take one step at a time, okay? 01:16:36.593 --> 01:16:38.427 Why don't you give me a call tomorrow? 01:16:38.795 --> 01:16:39.895 You know... 01:16:40.563 --> 01:16:41.497 you keep expecting her to change 01:16:42.099 --> 01:16:43.499 and, uh, she's not gonna. 01:16:43.900 --> 01:16:46.101 So I have to? 01:16:46.736 --> 01:16:47.970 Is that what you're saying? 01:16:49.138 --> 01:16:52.174 Forget it. 01:16:53.009 --> 01:16:56.312 All right? I'll talk to you tomorrow. 01:18:31.240 --> 01:18:34.276 Thanks for today. 01:18:34.878 --> 01:18:37.379 You going to be all right? 01:18:37.847 --> 01:18:39.048 What do you mean? 01:18:40.149 --> 01:18:43.185 Uh, nothing. 01:18:44.087 --> 01:18:47.789 Do you wanna come up for a little while? 01:19:06.009 --> 01:19:09.044 ( phone beeps ) 01:19:10.013 --> 01:19:12.414 - Any messages? - Yeah, a couple of patients. 01:19:12.916 --> 01:19:15.351 And from your wife? 01:19:15.585 --> 01:19:19.988 No. 01:19:26.796 --> 01:19:29.898 Can I kiss you? 01:19:31.000 --> 01:19:34.103 I've only let a few people kiss me. 01:19:35.504 --> 01:19:41.143 I wanna kiss you more than anything. 01:19:54.991 --> 01:20:00.095 ( panting ) 01:20:16.946 --> 01:20:19.981 I will never feel comfortable 01:20:20.449 --> 01:20:21.817 about how we met. 01:20:22.686 --> 01:20:24.052 Well, we can't do anything about that. 01:20:24.520 --> 01:20:29.158 That's the point. 01:20:35.898 --> 01:20:38.934 ( chuckles ) 01:20:39.335 --> 01:20:43.739 ( shoes thud ) 01:20:59.822 --> 01:21:02.925 ( panting ) 01:21:04.426 --> 01:21:09.431 I wanna be inside you. 01:21:23.946 --> 01:21:27.049 Why did you ask me up here? 01:21:28.618 --> 01:21:35.457 When we left my mother's house, I felt very close to you. 01:21:40.029 --> 01:21:43.064 We met two and a half years ago. 01:21:43.766 --> 01:21:45.334 You didn't me, you met Diana. 01:21:45.801 --> 01:21:47.736 Who did you meet? 01:21:48.505 --> 01:21:50.205 Somebody who tops from the bottom. 01:21:50.606 --> 01:21:53.509 That's not fair. 01:21:54.777 --> 01:21:57.813 When you started to bring me those books, 01:21:58.448 --> 01:21:59.882 you were being manipulative. 01:22:00.851 --> 01:22:02.418 It wasn't just me. You wanted to go out, too. 01:22:03.520 --> 01:22:06.555 And I gave you those books because I thought 01:22:07.090 --> 01:22:08.223 you might enjoy them. 01:22:08.691 --> 01:22:12.762 I did enjoy them. 01:22:48.631 --> 01:22:53.736 ( sighs ) 01:23:49.125 --> 01:23:53.729 ( exhales sharply ) 01:24:29.698 --> 01:24:34.803 ( panting ) 01:24:36.906 --> 01:24:39.942 It's no good, Peter. 01:24:40.209 --> 01:24:44.212 I can't. 01:25:06.068 --> 01:25:11.172 ( Suzanne sighs ) 01:25:34.330 --> 01:25:39.434 ( car beeping ) 01:26:02.125 --> 01:26:05.160 Suzanne on answering machine: Please leave a message. 01:26:05.495 --> 01:26:06.661 ( beeps ) 01:26:07.163 --> 01:26:08.230 Suzanne, it's Peter. 01:26:09.932 --> 01:26:12.968 I was wondering how you're doing. 01:26:14.070 --> 01:26:15.237 Things have been pretty stressful here at the office. 01:26:15.804 --> 01:26:18.840 I guess I'll, uh... 01:26:19.542 --> 01:26:21.209 tell you about it when we talk. 01:26:22.111 --> 01:26:24.746 I also feel exhausted by what happened. 01:26:26.449 --> 01:26:29.484 Why don't you give me a call? 01:26:30.386 --> 01:26:35.223 I'll be at the office for an hour or so. 01:26:35.557 --> 01:26:40.428 I hope you-- 01:26:40.796 --> 01:26:46.568 Well, call me. 01:27:52.268 --> 01:27:57.606 ( phone ringing ) 01:28:16.793 --> 01:28:19.828 Suzanne on answering machine: Hi, you've reached Suzanne. 01:28:20.696 --> 01:28:21.496 - Please leave a message. - ( beeps ) 01:28:22.531 --> 01:28:24.399 Peter on answering machine: Suzanne, it's Peter. 01:28:24.800 --> 01:28:27.903 Are you there? 01:28:29.205 --> 01:28:32.241 I just wanted to make sure you were all right. 01:28:32.608 --> 01:28:35.577 That's all. 01:28:36.445 --> 01:28:37.812 I'm sorry. I feel silly calling again, 01:28:38.481 --> 01:28:39.347 but it's been almost five days 01:28:40.015 --> 01:28:42.184 since we last saw each other. 01:28:42.585 --> 01:28:44.786 Or even talked. 01:28:45.788 --> 01:28:48.023 - If we could just-- well... - ( phone beeps ) 01:28:48.257 --> 01:28:50.759 Hi. 01:28:51.093 --> 01:28:55.030 I'm here. 01:28:59.401 --> 01:29:04.306 ( panting ) 01:29:12.214 --> 01:29:15.250 I can't see you anymore. 01:29:16.286 --> 01:29:18.153 That's it, Peter. I'm not going to change my mind. 01:29:18.821 --> 01:29:21.589 I'm sorry about the other night. 01:29:22.391 --> 01:29:23.992 I thought I could be patient. I-- 01:29:24.760 --> 01:29:25.560 I can't allow myself to want you. 01:29:26.729 --> 01:29:29.831 I know that's how you feel. 01:29:30.766 --> 01:29:33.802 It will never happen again. 01:29:34.336 --> 01:29:36.638 It will never happen. 01:29:37.439 --> 01:29:41.377 ( shouting ) I don't wanna lose you! 01:29:48.283 --> 01:29:53.989 If I gave in, I would be... 01:29:54.223 --> 01:29:57.225 I can't. 01:29:58.127 --> 01:29:59.861 And in reality, Peter, you can't either. 01:30:00.730 --> 01:30:02.430 Well, that's your decision, not mine. 01:30:03.232 --> 01:30:05.800 Did you forget that you're married? 01:30:07.837 --> 01:30:10.939 It's like your age. It's something I can't ignore. 01:30:12.842 --> 01:30:15.877 Let's get out of here. Let's just walk around 01:30:16.779 --> 01:30:17.979 - and talk about this. - ( shouting ) No! 01:30:18.948 --> 01:30:20.182 No, I'm not going anywhere with you together. 01:30:20.716 --> 01:30:23.318 Suzanne, don't do this. 01:30:23.586 --> 01:30:24.819 Do what? 01:30:25.654 --> 01:30:28.123 You are the one who's losing control. 01:30:28.724 --> 01:30:30.292 You can't let go of the... 01:30:30.559 --> 01:30:33.762 fantasy. 01:30:34.931 --> 01:30:37.966 Is that all you think this has been? 01:30:38.300 --> 01:30:40.602 ( sighs ) 01:30:41.336 --> 01:30:44.440 All? Maybe not. 01:30:45.340 --> 01:30:48.377 But it doesn't matter. 01:30:49.045 --> 01:30:52.614 I can't be responsible for you. 01:31:37.226 --> 01:31:40.262 Suzanne: Tell me what you feel, Peter. 01:31:41.030 --> 01:31:42.764 Peter: I feel you still with me. 01:31:43.265 --> 01:31:45.033 Suzanne: And this? 01:31:45.801 --> 01:31:46.468 Peter: Pain. It feels like pain. 01:31:47.236 --> 01:31:49.537 Suzanne: Tell me what's happening. 01:31:49.971 --> 01:31:51.206 Peter: I'm sad. 01:31:51.874 --> 01:31:53.074 Suzanne: Stay with it, Peter. 01:31:54.043 --> 01:31:55.043 Peter: As a child, I'd already given up hope. 01:31:55.811 --> 01:31:58.380 Suzanne: I was made to shape myself 01:31:58.914 --> 01:32:00.548 to what others wanted. 01:32:01.249 --> 01:32:02.384 Peter: Helpless, I searched. 01:32:02.985 --> 01:32:05.053 I wanted to be punctured, 01:32:05.320 --> 01:32:07.389 pierced, 01:32:07.756 --> 01:32:08.957 torn apart. 01:32:09.291 --> 01:32:11.059 Reformed. 01:32:11.894 --> 01:32:12.727 Suzanne: Shaped, I struck at their plan. 01:32:14.029 --> 01:32:17.065 I wanted to puncture, 01:32:17.332 --> 01:32:19.567 pierce, 01:32:19.901 --> 01:32:22.804 rip apart. 01:32:26.075 --> 01:32:29.177 Peter: I want to look at you again. 01:32:30.612 --> 01:32:35.517 Suzanne: The time is up. 01:32:43.291 --> 01:32:48.397 ( birds chirping ) 01:33:02.144 --> 01:33:05.180 Pat: Is she okay out there? 01:33:06.282 --> 01:33:07.182 Oh, yeah. She's a much better swimmer than I am. 01:33:07.649 --> 01:33:09.518 Pat: Oh, mm... 01:33:10.954 --> 01:33:13.555 The fisherman finally got their new boat landing on the south shore. 01:33:14.390 --> 01:33:16.958 The state approved it a few weeks ago. 01:33:17.893 --> 01:33:19.127 - Aw, that's too bad. - Oh, I don't know. 01:33:20.263 --> 01:33:22.564 I'm not even sure it'll make that big of a difference. 01:33:23.499 --> 01:33:24.832 Well, I thought most people were against it. 01:33:25.734 --> 01:33:27.969 Eh, they were resisting the idea of change 01:33:28.570 --> 01:33:31.573 as much as anything else. 01:33:32.341 --> 01:33:33.674 - That's normal, I guess. - Hmm. 01:33:34.209 --> 01:33:36.144 But not very realistic. 01:33:37.880 --> 01:33:40.915 Did she tell you anything about her trip? 01:33:41.583 --> 01:33:43.684 ( chuckles ) No, not really. 01:33:44.720 --> 01:33:46.588 I suppose we'll have to wait to see the pictures. 01:33:46.989 --> 01:33:49.991 That's funny. 01:33:51.060 --> 01:33:51.759 How they go from telling you absolutely everything 01:33:52.661 --> 01:33:54.929 - to practically nothing. - ( chuckles ) 01:33:55.330 --> 01:33:57.532 She's private. 01:33:57.866 --> 01:34:00.768 Like you. 01:34:01.102 --> 01:34:03.371 ( sighs ) 01:34:03.772 --> 01:34:06.107 I don't know. 01:34:06.575 --> 01:34:09.511 About her or you? 01:34:10.413 --> 01:34:12.347 I'm scared most people won't understand. 01:34:13.348 --> 01:34:16.384 Does that include me? 01:34:16.618 --> 01:34:18.019 No. 01:34:19.155 --> 01:34:22.257 You do hurt me, you know? 01:34:22.557 --> 01:34:25.661 I know. 01:34:26.161 --> 01:34:30.666 And I'm sorry. 01:34:44.847 --> 01:34:47.882 ( phone ringing ) 01:34:48.316 --> 01:34:50.452 Suzanne: Hello? 01:34:50.886 --> 01:34:52.987 Peter: Suzanne. 01:34:53.355 --> 01:34:54.656 It's Peter. 01:34:55.024 --> 01:34:57.158 How are you? 01:34:57.659 --> 01:35:00.595 Suzanne: I'm fine. 01:35:01.531 --> 01:35:03.231 Peter: I saw your ad in one of the magazines. 01:35:04.367 --> 01:35:06.468 Suzanne: I needed the money. It's only one day a week. 01:35:08.037 --> 01:35:11.072 Peter: I was wondering if we could get together. 01:35:11.473 --> 01:35:13.941 Just to talk. 01:35:15.144 --> 01:35:20.048 Suzanne: It won't be any different than it was a year ago. 01:35:24.185 --> 01:35:27.221 Peter? 01:35:27.622 --> 01:35:29.290 Are you there? 01:35:29.658 --> 01:35:33.094 Peter: Yes. 01:35:39.835 --> 01:35:44.939 ( music playing )